I'm Pretty Sure You're Gonna Regret That Darcy Pistolis by M. J. Padgett

Author:M. J. Padgett
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: love, romance, quirky, funny, young adult, young adult romance
Publisher: MJ PADGETT BOOKS LLC
Published: 2020-10-01T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twelve

THE MORE I THOUGHT about what Sean said, the more it haunted me. It stuck with me for days, but I couldn’t figure out what I was supposed to do about the way it made me feel. What could I do to grow, to move past losing Violet, and to figure out who I was? Had I ever known who I was, or was I always just Violet’s little sister? What could I change that would move my life forward instead of spinning in place?

As my date with Matt grew nearer, I became more hesitant about going. Driving all the way to Charlotte and staying the night didn’t exactly feel like first date activities. I could feel myself retreating into that place, the one that ran away from things when they got too complicated. I already searched for any way to back out of the date and hide in my own Darcy world, free of complicated dates and confusing boys. But I couldn’t do that anymore. Violet wouldn’t want that for me. I didn’t want that for me.

I called Matt with a proposal that made me much more comfortable about the situation.

“Hey, Darcy!” Matt’s excitement only made what I had to say all the more difficult.

“Hey, Matt, do you have a minute to talk?” My hands trembled, which was better than my voice.

“Sure, what’s up? Are you excited for the concert?” He was shuffling around, making noise in the background, slamming drawers. It sounded a lot like packing for a trip, and a surge of guilt kicked in.

“About that, um, I don’t think it’s a good idea. It’s a bit much for a first date. I mean, I don’t really know you that well and, I don’t know, I guess I’m a little uncomfortable.” There, the truth was out, let the chips fall where they may.

“Oh. Uh, well, okay, I understand. Maybe another time then?” he asked. The disappointment in his voice stung, so I hurried and offered my alternative.

“Well, I thought if it was a group date, it wouldn’t feel so weird. Ben and Nina agreed to come along if that’s okay with you?”

“Yes!” He cleared his throat and calmed himself. “I mean, sure that’s cool. I already have two rooms anyway.”

“And by two rooms, you mean...” I was almost sure he wasn’t stupid enough to insinuate we would share a room, but I needed to be sure.

“One for ladies, and one for the gentleman. I’m not that dense, Darcy. I had already gotten us separate rooms anyway, but if Ben doesn’t mind rooming with me, then it still works.” He laughed, and the mood shifted to something much more casual and comfortable.

We talked for a long time about everything and nothing, sharing childhood stories about Violet and his older brother—who’d had a giant crush on Violet and never told her. Surprisingly, the memories didn’t cause a break-down or tears of any kind, and I was happy to reminisce about happy times with my sister. Before I realized, three hours had passed.

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